Lisa’s Lung Cancer Story: Non-Small Cell Lung Cancer (NSCLC), ROS1+, Stage 4
Lisa Goldman is a passionate patient advocate for ROS1+ lung cancer patients after she was diagnosed with stage 4 at just 45 years old.
In her interview, Lisa talks about dealing with the stigma of lung cancer despite being a never-smoker, undergoing chemotherapy and targeted therapy, how she dealt with cancer as a parent, and the kind of support that has been the most important.
- Name: Lisa Goldman
- Diagnosis (DX):
- Non-small cell lung cancer (NSCLC)
- ROS1-positive (ROS1+)
- Stage 4
- Non-small cell lung cancer (NSCLC)
- Age at DX: 45
- 1st Symptoms:
- Persistent cough (months)
- Coughing a little blood
- High fever
- Night sweats
- Common cold
- Irritated airwaves (to explain the blood in cough)
Know that if you’re googling the prognostics or predicted survival curves for stage IV lung cancer, please set that aside. Most of that information is outdated.
These new treatments, whether it be targeted therapy or immunotherapy or customized vaccines, whatever else is coming out there, are really dramatically shifting survival rates.
So have some hope and positivity because I’m nothing if not living proof that those predictions aren’t always true.Lisa Goldman
- How did you get diagnosed?
- What happened at the primary care doctor visit
- When did your symptoms worsen
- Describe the ER visit
- You got a second opinion from a family friend
- Describe the pulmonologist visit
- The surgeon didn’t sugarcoat the diagnosis
- What were you feeling when you were diagnosed?
- What was it like being on oxygen 24-7?
- Treatment Decisions
- The diagnosis was out of left field because you never smoked
- How did you decide which hospital to go to?
- What made you switch to a lung cancer specialist?
- Why did you switch back to a smaller hospital?
- Advice on building the relationship with your doctor?
- Chemotherapy and Side Effects
- Did you choose treatment?
- How many cycles of chemo did you undergo?
- What were the side effects of chemo?
- Please rate the side effects you got from chemo
- How did you respond to chemo?
- Did you lose your hair
- Targeted Therapy
- How did you learn about the targeted therapy drug?
- Self-advocacy as a patient
- How were you feeling at this point?
- Were there any targeted therapy side effects?
- Please rate your side effects from the targeted therapy
- How long have you been on the targeted therapy?
- How do you talk to your kids about the cancer?
- Any advice for other parents dealing with diagnosis?
- Seeking out professionals
- How did you find the professionals?
- What’s your advice to people dealing with a new diagnosis?
- What was once considered “incurable” is changing
- How did you manage the emotional stress?
- What has helped you deal with the toughest stuff?
- Family has been a big part of the journey
- Support came from those who’ve been through their own trauma
- Support also came from unexpected places
How did you get diagnosed?
Summary: I was misdiagnosed with a cold and bronchitis for months. By the time I was diagnosed, I had three broken ribs from coughing so hard, night sweats, fevers, and was coughing up a little bit of blood. I had undergone multiple x-rays when I should have gotten a low-dose CT scan. That would have shown the cancer.
I rarely got sick or went to the doctor but I had had a persistent cold and cough for several weeks and finally decided to go to the doctor. I hate taking even antibiotics because I want to save them for when I really need them.
I’m not the type to run to the doctor to get those. It took a lot, probably a month, and finally I dragged myself there and went to my first appointment with the urgent care because it was over a weekend and my friend said just go and get some antibiotics.
So that’s what I did. I went to the urgent care that just happened to be open on the weekends and they did a quick X-ray of my lungs. They gave me antibiotics and codeine cough syrup to stop the cough. They said the x-ray looked totally clean.
This was in October. I was very physically fit, I was teaching about five spin classes a week and all kinds of other exercise classes, eating healthfully, and all that stuff. But I took those medications and didn’t get better, in fact, got a little worse.
What happened at the primary care doctor visit
Then I went to my primary care doctor in mid-November a couple weeks later and said the coughing is getting worse. She took a listen to my lungs and just did a quick exam and said she thought it was still just a garden variety type of bronchitis or something.
She gave me a different kind of antibiotic and an inhaler. It was the first inhaler I’d ever had in my life.
I never had asthma or allergies, anything like that, which now looking back I wish I had pushed back a little bit more and said why are you not looking further into something and treating something I have no history of? But that’s what we did.
I went home with this inhaler and some other medicines, tried that for a few weeks, it wasn’t getting better. I went back again in the beginning of December and again, same routine. She just upped the level to a more heavy duty inhaler with steroids and it still didn’t work.
When did your symptoms worsen
I started coughing up blood. This was mid-December. I wanted to check in with her. I wasn’t coughing up volumes of it, I was just coughing up a little spot here or there.
It wasn’t bright red, it was dark orange kind of brownish color. Just a little, tiny bit, not alarming like oh, I really need to get myself to the hospital. It was just like hmm, I’ve never had that before, what is that?
I went to the doctor who said it was irritated airwaves, that I’d been coughing for months now and it was just inflamed. She said she was not going to worry about it and suggested I go home.
It was the winter holiday so my kids were out of school. We were going to go to my childhood home to visit my parents.
My doctor said go enjoy your vacation. If things aren’t better when you come back in January, we’ll do another X-ray. I said okay. I went home to my parents’ house in Palm Desert in Southern California.
Then it started accelerating. I was having high fever and night sweats and coughing horribly, coughing so much that we discovered later I had three broken ribs.
So my mom said go now and get another X-ray right now. That’s what I did.
Describe the ER visit
I went into the ER in Palm Desert. They did an X-ray.
Now that I know more about all this, what they should’ve done, based on the X-ray, was sent me for a CT right then and there.
They didn’t. They said they definitely saw something on the X-ray that was not normal but they thought it was pneumonia. They said, “We’re going to give you some other medications, some more heavy duty cough medications and when you get home in a couple weeks, then go get a CT.”
You got a second opinion from a family friend
Mark, a family friend who was a physician, happened to be visiting my parents during the holidays, as well. He took one look at me. He’s not an oncologist, he’s not even a pulmonologist, he’s a retired gastroenterologist,
He never used the word cancer, but he said, “This is not adding up. You haven’t responded for months to all these medications sand you’re getting worse. Stop messing around with the primary care physician. Right now go call and make an appointment for a pulmonologist.”
Describe the pulmonologist visit
I was going home in a couple days so at that point it didn’t make sense to seek treatment in Palm Desert. The day I got home I went to see a pulmonologist.
He took a listen to my lungs and read my O2 (oxygen) level, which was really compromised. I can’t remember. It was maybe in the 70’s at the time and normal is 99- or 100-percent.
He said go down and get a CT immediately. So that day he sent me down for a CT. Again, I didn’t appreciate how abnormal this was because I didn’t go to the doctor a lot.
I went right back upstairs to this pulmonologist whom I had just met and he pulled up the images of the CT. When he pulled it up, both my lungs were just covered, totally whited out. That’s really bad.
But he never said the word cancer. It wasn’t even on my mind because I wasn’t what I thought was the typical lung cancer patient.
He said we need to go get a biopsy, I think it’s something called sarcoidosis. He really downplayed it so I wasn’t freaking out and we made an appointment for the next week to get a biopsy.
Luckily, my family friend Mark was going to be in the Bay Area. He came with me to that biopsy and I was diagnosed right as I woke up from the biopsy.
Mark was there in the recovery room with my husband, able to translate the information that was being thrown at us.
The surgeon didn’t sugarcoat the diagnosis
I hope other people have better experiences. When I woke up, I had my husband near my bed and this family doctor friend, Mark. At the very foot of the bed was the surgeon who’d done the biopsy who I’d only met once before at the pre-biopsy appointment.
Obviously, as I was being wheeled in, he was in the room but I never really built a relationship with him. There he is at the foot of my bed. It’s 8 o’clock on a Friday night, he wants to go home, I don’t blame him, but he just said, “Looks like stage four lung cancer. There will be an oncologist who will show up in your room tonight and good luck. Good night.”
And he just left. So it was not great.
What were you feeling when you were diagnosed?
It’s such a shock, and so overwhelming and so foreign to be diagnosed with something that I’ve never researched.
I’d never known anybody who had it, knew nothing about it at all. Even just basic medical terms. I was out of it.
I had never even had anesthesia before in my life, so I was just waking up from that and a little out of it and the shock of the diagnosis.
I think I was probably scared to go home but I didn’t understand that it would be unsafe. I couldn’t differentiate between that, whereas having Mark there really helped.
They were ready to send me home after that biopsy and Mark was there saying no she’s tachycardic (high heart rate). I didn’t even know what tachycardic meant at the time.
He ended up talking to them and saying you can’t release her. I ended up being in the ICU for a week, so it’s crazy.
I shudder to think of what it would have been like to be sent home in that condition. And I was on oxygen. They were going to send me home without oxygen.
I ended up being on oxygen for almost two months. When I finally came home from the ICU I just brought the tanks home with me and so I am so grateful that he was there to help.
What was it like being on oxygen 24-7?
The hospital set this all up. They contract with a provider who comes in and sets up a compressor in the house. It’s this thing that looks like a portable air conditioning unit.
I got this really long hose so I could walk anywhere in the house. It’s like having a leash. It’s a hose from the compressor that’s kind of noisy so we set it up in the living room so it’s not near the bedrooms.
Then I had this hose going all through the house, to my bed or wherever I was walking in the house. Of course it’s always in the way, people are tripping on it, getting caught in doors, pain in the neck, but then you don’t have to have a tank that you’re switching out. It’s compressing oxygen from the air in the house.
When I wanted to leave the house, which wasn’t very often in those early days, especially because of the oxygen, I had this portable tank that I could either wheel or eventually I got one that was in a little backpack type thing that I could carry on my shoulder.
To be honest, those almost made me a little bit nervous so I was a bit housebound those first couple of months.
The diagnosis was out of left field because you never smoked
I learned the hard way. Even though I had already heard the year before of a younger patient who got diagnosed with lung cancer, I still thought, wow, that’s so weird.
I didn’t even have to think it would ever happen to me. It was just, that’s weird, and these unusual things happen one in a million. Then when it actually happened to me and I started finding out more about lung cancer and finding other fellow lung cancer patients, I realized this is not what I thought it was at all.
Lung cancer is on the rise in never-smokers, it’s on the rise in younger people, it’s on the rise in women.
It’s not the stereotypical haggard smoker, had a two-pack-a-day habit for decades. That’s not the typical patient anymore. Here’s the statistics I have heard.
About 20-percent of the newly diagnosed patients are active smokers. That leaves 80-percent who aren’t. A big chunk of that, about 60-percent of those are former smokers, but a lot of those former smokers quit decades ago so they think of themselves as long-time non-smokers.
Who knows? Some of those people, I’m sure their smoking history has to do with their lung cancer diagnosis, but some of them maybe not. We’ve never examined that because of the stigma and the assumptions that lung cancer is only and always due to smoking.
How did you decide which hospital to go to?
When I went in for my biopsy, cancer hadn’t even been discussed. So I thought I was just going in for an outpatient procedure and then we would deal with that, whatever the results were after.
But when I woke up, I was admitted to the hospital immediately thereafter and told it was stage 4 lung cancer, that we needed to start treatment immediately.
So I spent the next day doing baseline scans and then they started my chemotherapy right there in the hospital 24 hours later.
I didn’t have time to research doctors or hospitals and pick where I wanted to go. I still don’t even know quite how that happened. An oncologist just showed up in my room and was like, “Here’s our plan and do as I say or this isn’t going to work out. This isn’t going to go well for you.”
I wasn’t given options. Later on down the line, I was lucky. It turned out that oncologist who showed up did a great job for me.
What made you switch to a lung cancer specialist?
As I got my bearings, I started to research and found she was a general oncologist. I wondered if I should get myself to a thoracic oncologist who specializes in lung cancer,
I eventually found out I tested positive for a genomic alteration called ROS1-positive (ROS1+) and I wanted to be with someone who had other patients that had that same diagnosis.
I started looking away from the community hospitals and toward Stanford and UCSF which were accessible. I did some second opinions there a few months after my diagnosis at both of those places and eventually shifted to one for a few months. Didn’t love it.
Why did you switch back to a smaller hospital?
I had these great ideas of oh, if I just go to [a major hospital], everything’s going to be great there. It’s not that the doctors aren’t brilliant there but I definitely felt like a number.
The emphasis on research there overshadows the patient care in my experience so I ended up shifting back to a community hospital where the nurses knew my name.
I had my oncologist’s phone number, and he was responsive to me and just accessible. Not that the other doctors aren’t responsive but you don’t have the same kind of access. There’s just so many layers you have to go through to get to the doctor and the doctor’s not in clinic very often, one day a week.
I ended up shifting back to a general oncologist in a community setting but having established relationships at the academic centers so I can consult them when I have to make some major decision in my care. But for the day to day labs or even the regular schedule scans, it’s so much better for me to be at the community setting.
Advice on building the relationship with your doctor?
I struggle with finding the right balance in building the right relationship with my oncologist and my care team because there’s all this pressure.
Constantly, patients are given the message you have to advocate for yourself, you have to push, you have to come in with all your research and I do all that, but also you want to be deferential.
These are the experts. I don’t have a medical degree. This sounds embarrassing to say, but you want to be liked. You want your doctor to care about you and smile when you enter the room and not like ugh, this person’s constantly arguing, pushing, and questioning. So it’s been a process for me to learn how to balance those two.
I definitely advocate for myself but I also try to have some deference and build a relationship.
So my advice is find the right match but also always, always get second opinions and create a sort of team.
Here’s whom I go to for my regular care but maybe if I have questions, maybe I have some expert who’s very specialized but wouldn’t be great for my day-to-day care or is even available for that.
That person knows about me so when I need them I can reach out. I have other people on the team that fill other roles. So I have a therapist I see for my emotional stuff because that’s not what an oncologist does.
The one thing I think is most important for me in the doctor is that they will listen and also agree to work and accept that I have these other people on the team.
What I found doesn’t work for me is a doctor who wants to be in charge and doesn’t want input from me or anybody else. That would be probably a suggestion for other patients is to look for doctors who have expertise but also willing to listen to others.
Chemotherapy and Side Effects
Did you choose treatment?
I wasn’t given choices. I definitely had to sign off permission so I guess technically I had a choice not to sign. But basically, the oncologist came in and said you’re relatively young, you’re healthy and fit, so I think you can tolerate a really aggressive chemotherapy prescription and I want to start as soon as possible.
Here’s what the three drugs are. It was Cisplatin, Avastin and Alimta. Cisplatin is so toxic they actually have to infuse you with a whole bunch of saline before and after to wash your kidneys so it’s actually a twelve-hour infusion because of the before and after, in addition to the infusion, itself. She’s like, I think you can take it so we’re going to start that immediately.
- Treatment cycle:
- Chemotherapy: Cisplatin + Bevacizumab (Avastin) + Pemetrexed (Alimta)
- 4 cycles
- Cycle = 3 weeks
- Given over ~12 hours in one day
- 4 cycles
- Maintenance chemotherapy: Bevacizumab (Avastin) + Pemetrexed (Alimta)
- 4 cycles
- Cycle = 3 weeks
Given over ~6-8 hours in one day
- Cycle = 3 weeks
- 4 cycles
- Targeted therapy: Crizotinib (Xaltori)
- Chemotherapy: Cisplatin + Bevacizumab (Avastin) + Pemetrexed (Alimta)
How many cycles of chemo did you undergo?
I underwent four cycles of chemotherapy with Cisplatin, Bevacizumab (Avastin), and Pemetrexed (Alimta). Each cycle lasted three weeks.
The infusion was the first day for about 12 hours. The first was one right there in the hospital and it takes about 12 hours. I tolerated the first one pretty well.
Because they know Cisplatin is so difficult to tolerate, they give you all sorts of stuff before and after you take it, not just steroids but there’s an extra drug called “Emend” that you take to prevent nausea. So I was on all kinds of things to help ameliorate the difficulty of tolerating the chemo.
For maintenance chemo, they just took out the Cisplatin. It was still four cycles, three weeks each. The infusion was shorter at around six to eight hours on that first day. Altogether, I was on chemotherapy for eight months.
What were the side effects of chemo?
The nausea’s the one that jumps out in my memory. It’s all the side effects of the things that are supposed to treat the side effects.
Those steroids are brutal, they interrupt your sleep, they make you a little crazy emotionally. Speaking of emotional, I wouldn’t call that necessarily a side effect of chemo as much as a side effect of being thrown a total curve ball in your life but I think it’s really important part of treatment.
In addition to your prescription for your medications, I wish they gave everybody a prescription to go visit palliative care and to also go visit a social worker or therapist or some emotional support like that. I think that’s really key to coping with this and it has actual ramifications in terms of how well you tolerate your treatments and how your quality of life is.
Specifically, the first cycle went pretty well, I didn’t get that nauseous. The second one also, but these things accumulate. By the fourth one I was really feeling it. I definitely remember barely being able to walk out of the infusion lab by the fourth one.
That triplet with the Cisplatin I only did four rounds. Every three weeks I would go in for that. Then they shifted to what they called “maintenance chemo” and they took out the Cisplatin but left me with the Avastin and Alimta which was much more tolerable but still had side effects.
So I was still taking anti-nausea medication and steroids and then it caused high blood pressure so I had blood pressure, all these things, you know how it goes.
The first week after the infusion, make no appointments. Just plan on being home pretty much and get yourself a nice Netflix subscription and whatever.
Then you start to feel better and I was myself by the third week. That was a good week. You live your life on this okay, everything I want to do I have to compress in Week 3. You go through that whole thing every three weeks.
Please rate the side effects you got from chemo
Everyone tracks differently. Lisa rates her side effects with chemo an 8 out of 10. This indicates that she happened to have a more difficult experience.
As for her experience with side effects on the maintenance chemo, Lisa rates her experience at a 6 out of 10, making it better than her primary chemo when she also had to get the Cisplatin drug infusion.
How did you respond to chemo?
I would go for a scan every, depended on how the symptoms were going and such. The triplet with the Cisplatin I had a good response to so my scans started improving pretty drastically. I never got to a place where there was nothing on the scans but it was much improved so much that after about two rounds of chemo I was able to come off the oxygen (tank).
It was quite a sight. I was always the youngest person in the infusion lab usually, but I was the worst-looking because I had the oxygen tank and so I had the hose in my nose, schlepping the tank around. I’d have to go to the bathroom, I’d have the pole with the infusion stuff then my oxygen tank.
I was just a mess of cords and whatever. The triplet worked really well but it’s not tolerable long term. Then I went to maintenance chemo and the symptoms started creeping back after a few months. I started coughing and the scans started showing the cancer returning. After eight months it was clearly not working anymore.
Luckily, really luckily, I had found out earlier that my cancer tested positive for ROS1. We knew that there was a targeted therapy drug that I could take for that so that’s when I switched. I’ve been that ever since.
Did you lose your hair
They told me I would. Cisplatin typically does make people lose their hair so I did the whole wig shopping thing. Those are expensive! I regret it because actually my hair thinned quite a bit but it never fell out completely.
I cut it short and then went wig shopping and was all ready. Now it’s still sitting in my closet unused. For me, I didn’t end up completely losing my hair.
I probably would have cared more if it actually happened but when they told me that it came along with all this other news that was more terrifying, I was more focused on what am I going to tell my kids. My prognosis was about nine months so the hair was low priority on that scale.
How did you learn about the targeted therapy drug?
I had my biopsy at El Camino Hospital, the local hospital here in Mountain View. My biopsy was done on January 10 and I found out later that starting on January 1 of that year was when they started testing all the lung cancer biopsies that came through the pathology lab there for ROS1.
Without me even having to ask for the genomic testing, they had instituted a process where they did that automatically just a few days before my biopsy.
It took a few weeks for those results to come in so I didn’t find out till after I started chemotherapy so they decided to keep me on the chemotherapy train until it stopped working since we’d already started that treatment course.
I knew pretty early on that I was ROS1-positive and that there was a targeted therapy. The complication was the targeted therapy was not FDA-approved at that point so the doctor, the community hospital general oncologist I’d been working with, had never used or tried to use that targeted therapy on my type of cancer because it wasn’t even FDA-approved at that point.
I was doing my own research and had found that it was already in Phase 3 trials in the U.S. The results had been so compelling it had been fast-tracked with the FDA. Insurance was already approving it for some patients out there.
I asked her to prescribe it and submit it for insurance approval so we would have it available. She was a little reluctant at the time so I advocated for myself.
Self-advocacy as a patient
My doctor told me after this chemo, not to worry. She was trying to reassure me, don’t worry, that I had other chemotherapies that we could try.
I was like no, no, I really have been hearing great things about this targeted therapy. Let’s look into that.
How were you feeling at this point?
My doctor told me I had stage IV lung cancer but she never said that means you have this prognosis, this many months. But of course I avoided Googling that explicitly for awhile.
Finally I worked up the confidence to do that and it’s not good. But those numbers are out of date at this point. The targeted therapies are really changing the survival curves dramatically.
I’m the kind of person that needs to know more. I know some patients prefer not to know anything and have kind of a gatekeeper, might be a spouse or just a friend or whoever, sift through that and give them whatever they need to know but I need to know it myself, directly.
So I did a lot of research on my own. Sometimes that’s hard to read but for me in the end, knowledge is more helpful rather than less.
Were there any targeted therapy side effects?
With targeted therapy when I switched to it I almost had a more difficult time the first six months, it made me more nauseous than the chemotherapy. I just remember being on my bedroom floor every morning for months.
I didn’t have the bad weeks. Eventually it evened out and I got a handle on the side effects and my body adjusted, but I didn’t have a bad week then good week. It was consistently.. I never got to the lows or the highs. That took some adjustment, I’ve lived with this medication.
Luckily I feel so grateful, I’ve been on this medication almost four years now.
There’s chronic things. I have edema, I have some nausea, it’s totally under control most of the time but it’s just part of my daily life. There’s these certain things that I live with and am never rid of whereas with chemotherapy, ironically, there was the good days where the very best days were actually better than the targeted therapy days.
Please rate your side effects from the targeted therapy
How long have you been on the targeted therapy?
I’ve been super, super fortunate. Knock on wood here because I was put on this targeted therapy called Xalkori in September of 2014. I was told that the median effective time for the drug would be 12 to 18 months and I’m still on it so I’m approaching the four-year mark on this medication.
I’m clearly on the outlier end of the spectrum which is great but it’s also nerve wracking because I know that I’m kind of winning the lottery and my number might come up and not in a good way at some point.
I don’t know that many people. The further out I go the less people I know ahead of me. I know a lot of people on this medication but I’ve gone from looking out and saying oh, I want to be one of those people that’s four to five years on this drug to now I’m the one everybody else is looking at and I’m losing the people ahead of me.
That’s my particular struggle right now is how do I confront that now? I’m feeling good right now. Luckily I have no symptoms that are causing me great concern. Of course that doesn’t always correlate with how the scans go but I’m optimistic right now.
This is the longest interval for the whole period since I was diagnosed I was getting scanned every two to four months, two to three most of that time. Last year I shift it to every four months for a couple cycles. This is the first time I’ve gone six months so it’s been a big one!
How do you talk to your kids about the cancer?
Having a diagnosis like this when you have young kids at home is in my view, the hardest part of it. The world turns upside down.
I came home on oxygen and sick. My mom basically moved in for months. It was a radical shift. There was no hiding it from the kids, for better or for worse.
I don’t necessarily think it was for worse because it’s a strange place to be now where I appear normal yet I know I’m still dealing with a very scary situation. That’s a strange thing for me to wrap my head around let alone young children.
In a way, having this tangible thing, it is real and you can see it, I think helps process. Helps everybody face it and deal with it.
I have had friends who went straight into targeted therapy and it’s like, oh mom was sick and now she’s better and when they did get worse, it was like another trauma. So my family didn’t have that experience.
We had to face it head on. I definitely contacted therapists and social workers to help us figure out how to help the kids deal with this. They still, four plus years into this, we still have them visit people. Not as constant.
It’s not as intense as it was in the first year but it’s still something that is very much part of our lives. We try to cope with it. We have a library of books and tools, anxiety tools, from coloring books to stress balls to games.
This whole stable of support systems, whether it’s their teachers at school or the therapists we’ve hired or the doctors that know about it, things like that.
Any advice for other parents dealing with diagnosis?
I think it’s different depending on the kid. You have to have some level of deference and let the kid lead. Not to the extent of ignoring it entirely. I have two kids. One that likes to talk about it and know all the details, and one kid that barely asks any questions at all.
So I communicate with them totally differently. The one who wants to know the details I share. The one who doesn’t, I don’t necessarily get into the nitty gritty but I actually make sure to weave it into the conversation a little bit so we’re not in a denial situation. I think that you have to know your kid.
Seeking out professionals
I don’t think you can do this without an expert’s guidance because you don’t know how to do this till you’ve been through it. There’s no way you can have experience with it.
Seek out a professional. If the professional doesn’t work, don’t give up on professionals, find another one because they’re all so personal.
We all need different types of personalities and support so I’ve definitely met the first social worker at the hospital wasn’t a match for our family, but eventually I did find the right person. It takes trial and error sometimes but it’s so crucial.
How did you find the professionals?
There were a few sources. The hospital has social workers on staff but those people ended up not being a match for our family.
We got really lucky, there were social workers at school that first year and those people were really good. They switched out the next year and the replacement was not good.
I ended up having to do some research, talking to friends and family, finding people outside the system just privately. It can come from a lot of different places.
What’s your advice to people dealing with a new diagnosis?
My number one advice to any lung cancer patient is to go get genomic testing. I don’t care who you are and even if you have a history of smoking or you’re older patient, whatever it is, everyone should get genomic testing because you never know if your cancer is going to turn out to have one of these targetable mutations. If it does, your survival statistics change drastically.
Your quality of life. There are these things I have to deal with chronically but overall I live a pretty normal life.
I carpool my kids to school. I do take exercise classes. I travel. I do 90-percent of what I was doing before so it’s as close to normal life as you can possible get with this type of diagnosis. Much closer than the chemotherapy where I’m tethered to the infusion every few weeks and on that roller coaster.
Also, find your people.
Once you know your genomic mutation, if you have one, or even if you don’t. If you’re considered wild type. Go find the people with that. There’s groups with everything now.
I’m part of a ROS1+ group, there’s group for EGFR positive (EGFR+) patients, for ALK positive (ALK+), for KRAS, there’s hundreds of types of lung cancer out there now. The more specific you can search for and find those communities, the better information you’re going to get back.
You find those people you’ll immediately be plugged into all the current clinical trials, who the world experts are, where the conferences are, the side effects for our medication.
All that great information is going to be at your fingertips really quickly rather than wading through all the general information about cancer or even just lung cancer. Find your very specific sisters and brothers out there.
What was once considered “incurable” is changing
I have a friend that re-labeled “PTSD” (Post Traumatic Stress Disorder) to “OTSD”: Ongoing Traumatic Stress Disorder because I think the medical field hasn’t quite caught up to the realities of this new category of patients.
Those of us that have been given diagnoses that are what they would call incurable. In the past say, a decade prior, people receiving that diagnosis would probably pass away in less than a year so it was this dramatic diagnosis with no good treatments and then the patient would pass away.
Of course they’d have PTSD but they didn’t have to go on living their normal lives. They were just immediately plunged into the chaos and panic until it was over.
But for those of us living for years with these diagnoses and often on targeted therapy, or now immunotherapy is doing this as well, CAR T is now out there, there are all these breakthroughs that aren’t cures but are extending lives for years beyond what they used to.
So there’s this whole new population that has to live with the knowledge that they have this very severe diagnosis and yet proceed with living right?
I’m not in the crisis stage where I’m on oxygen and housebound anymore. I’m out in the world living my life while also carrying this invisible burden, right?
And there’s so many ways that that has played out. It’s a whole process that I’m constantly evolving with. For a long time it felt very strange to be out in the world. I just remember being in line at the grocery store and thinking nobody knows what I’m dealing with.
I look normal, people are treating me normally but I’m not normal and I might not feel well, or maybe I feel okay but I have all this emotional stuff.
There’s just all this trauma and knowledge [of] the very vivid recent experience of the rug being ripped from out under your feet and knowing that that could happen at any time in such a visceral way.
As much as people say, oh, make the most of today, we all die and there’s a difference between intellectually knowing that and experiencing that and the trauma of that, living with that is something that I’m constantly a work in progress trying to figure out how to proceed.
How did you manage the emotional stress?
I think I’m getting better at it. I honestly do embrace life and say, okay, I have this. Lots of people have difficult things they live with whether they’re living in some war torn place or in poverty or a serious diagnosis, we all have our struggles and this is mine currently.
How am I going to go on living my life and planning for things in the future and getting comfortable with that? Like, okay I’m going to plan a trip for six months a way. That blew my mind initially and now I’m getting used to it.
What has helped you deal with the toughest stuff?
I have all kinds of tools that I use. A lot of them you’ll hear about over and over again.
If I had a nickel for every time somebody told me to meditate, and I suck at it still, like so many of us do. I don’t love meditating but I try.
I’ve done all the other easy things like get the coloring books and the fun books to read, the magazines, whatever calms you. Whether it’s your favorite TV show or movie or book or coloring books.
We have this great alternative book store in Mountain View called “East West” and they have fun things. Stress balls to squeeze, or I have this play-doh, I don’t know.
You can spend your money however you want. You can get magic crystal necklaces or mala beads to play with. I have all in a toolkit like that.
I think that’s great, that’s fun but really it’s about a mindset and shifting my mindset. Accepting where I’m at and the possibility that I could be there for awhile. Allowing myself to live my life today.
It took a lot of time. A lot of talking with friends and therapists and reading books and figuring out how I can proceed with this
Family has been a big part of the journey
Cancer didn’t just happen to me. It happened to my whole family and everybody’s been really supportive of me but they all have had their processes, too.
I’m sure it was terrifying, it still is terrifying for my husband to face the prospect of losing his partner potentially. And what it would be like to raise kids as a single parent. My mother is obviously distraught at the possibility of losing her daughter, both my parents.
I don’t know what it’s like to be in one of those roles but I can appreciate that everybody has gone through this and it affects all of us a little differently.
Support came from those who’ve been through their own trauma
I was a little bit surprised at which friends showed up and which friends didn’t. That’s not a judgment on them but a lot of times it had to do whether they had some relevant experience of not this diagnosis, [but their own trauma].
I have two friends who had lost a parent to ALS. I have one friend whose husband had a cancer diagnosis a few years prior. They just had some frame of reference for facing mortality and dealing with a trauma of this magnitude.
Friends who didn’t have that frame of reference tried to show up a lot of times but just didn’t appreciate what I might need or want or what boundaries are appropriate or inappropriate. It’s interesting how that plays out.
It’s hard because on the one hand I want to say push the boundaries. I tend to be introverted, I don’t like asking people for help so I mostly appreciate it when somebody is a little pushier and just says hey I’m going to come over with this meal and I’ll just leave it here if you want to talk, or don’t want to talk. Come in if you do want to talk. But they would take the initiative.
Support also came from unexpected places
I think you have to listen to how you’re feeling with that relationship.
There are people I had no relationship that reached out. There was this one woman. I taught these fitness classes and she was a regular in my classes but I didn’t really know her.
She reached out she brought a meal and a lot of people did that, it was amazing the people that show up are so generous. But I didn’t differentiate her from the other people that were dropping off meals. She did it a few more times then she asked to go for a walk one day when I was feeling up to it. We did that.
Come to learn she’d lost her husband to brain cancer and she gets this so we’ve grown close. So I can’t give a blanket, if you don’t the person at all, don’t be pushy.
Sometimes if you know you have that connection and you can understand and you’re getting some symbiotic relationship conversation going, then keep going with it.
But if the person isn’t responding to you , at some point you have to know maybe, it’s not personal it’s just if I’m not feeling good, I don’t want you stopping by every other day.
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